Better Healthier Me- Week 2 day 1- Let's hear it for moderation. | trixiegirl's Blog

Pretty basic day.  Got up at 8:30 had a small bowl of cereal, a bottle of water.  Called the agency and there was no work available.  Decided to get out of the house and ran some errands.  By 10:30 it was steaming hot, so I popped in a disc of Brothers and Sisters.  (my new guilty pleasure, and Rob Lowe is still HOT!), about 11:50  I finished the little bit of Tuna casserole and had some more water.  Sat out in the sun and read a book until about 1:30 and had another bottle of water.  After melting like a popsicle, I came inside and watched more B&S. I did get a call from my "contract" company, they had a  little  work for me today. 

The big challenge today was trying to make something for supper.  Right now, the contract company has been stalling my last payment, things are pretty tight financially and the cupboards are pretty bare.  So, I did what I do best, I improvised.  I just started throwing things in the crock pot.  Used a couple of hamburger patties, green peas, can of cream of mushroom soup,rice and a bit of milk.  Left it all simmer.  At about 3:30 I had a small bowl to see if it was at least edible.  Well, it was edible, but it looked like some kind of gruel, that would have done Oliver Twist proud.  About 5:30 had another small serving of gruel (sp??) with the BF for dinner.  About 6 it hits me hard, I am having a major sugar jones.  I tried to make an iced coffee, but I have no sweetener or flavored coffee creamer, so it was just coffe, milk and ice.  About 2 sips in, I new it wasn't doing the trick, and I ended up tossing it.  I really hate wasting good milk :( 

Around 8 oclock I am ready to fufill my work obligations, and pick up another B&S disc.  I go to the hospital, get the specimans and take them to the lab for processing.  On the way, I pass a Mickey D's and decide to stop for an iced mocha.  I have never had one from there before, so I am not sure what to expect.  I go for a medium (old habit, always order large....) with non fat milk.  Thinking I am trying to keep this somewhat in the good for me range.  Well, they hand it to me, it had whipped cream and chocolate syrup on top.  I stick my straw into the coffe part, take a sip and BLECH!!  It was terrible.  The worst part, I pissed away 3 and 15 cents on something so awful, when I don't have alot of disposable income right now.  I couldn't bear to just pitch it. Yep, I am a full blown (no pun intended) member of the clean plate club circa 1972.  So I drank the liquid and left the whipped cream and sauce lay on the ice.

So, here I am at 11 oclock wide awake, still needing a sugar fix.  Gotta admit, I tried to be strong and ignore it, but I couldn't.  I just had a very small serving of sugar free butter pecan ice cream.  You know what?  I think it did the trick.  While I wish I could say that I just told the craving to go to hell, I realize that I have been pouring sugar into my system for a long time and cravings are probably going to hit me hard and fast, deal with 'em.  Even though I feel a little down with todays outcome, I do see several positives. Ice cream is one of my most favorite "comfort" foods in the whole wide world.  To only have a small serving is awesome for me.  Actually, it's monumental.  So, yippee for  me, learning portion control  and knowing that I don't need to Super Size everything from a drive thru window.

Summary:

Water intake- up. Several small meals-intact.  Moderation-yeah, pretty much.  All in all, not such a bad day.