BHM- day 5 - almost a week in! | trixiegirl's Blog

I have heard over the years that you have to do something for 2 weeks for it to become a habit.  I now have 5 consecutive days of blogging, and therefore 5 consecutive days of lesson learning and healthier eating.

When I started this journey, I had no idea it would be so helpful.  I decided right out of the gate to be 100 % honest each time I posted.  I initially only posted for myself, but  knew that being a public forum, there is always a chance that others will read. (given my trust and vunerability issues, posting daily and HONESTLY is, well, frankly amazing to me.)  Knowing that I was going to post in here for all who care to see, really helps me think before I just shovel something in my mouth out of anger, boredom and god knows whatever other reasons push me to be an emotional eater.  I mean, do I really want to type, I ate a dozen cookies because the neighbor hurt my feelings? Granted, if it happens I will be honest and put it out there, but as of now I have really benn able to use this blog as a tool to help me stop and think (most times) before I react.

I realize that I can still decide to eat the cookies after I have addressed the anger.  But, at least I made an informed decision.  Words can not express what a powerful feeling it is for me to be this in control over something that has plaqued me since the third grade.  Thank you to everyone who reads and comments.  Your support was completely unexpected, but so very welcomed. Again, there are no words to express how much your encouragement has helped and sustains me. .

I had initially typed everything out a bit earlier, but we had a huge thunderstorm that knocked me off line and my previous outpouring was lost.  To sum it all up, I worked outside (temping)  as a sign holder announcing a huge sale at the mall. (You've seen 'em,)  It was 92 degrees with a feel like temp of 102 according to  the weather reports.  Honestly it felt like 1000.  I didn't eat enough before hand, and felt a bit woozy.  I did have alot of water there, so eventually I settled in and just did what I love to do....people watch.  Got home about 8:30 and was STARVING, but decided to have some juice so I could replenish all the "stuff" I sweated out.  In doing so, it actually gave me time to chill, and think rationally before I just started plowing thru the fridge.  I also realized that I wasn't nearly as hungry.  HUH... So I had a bit to eat, and am now winding down.  Need to power up for another day of sign holding!  Hey, it's an honest way to earn a buck.

Thanks again for reading.