BHM-day 3 little rougher but pushing through | trixiegirl's Blog

Today I'm feeling a little sluggish and really tired.  Felt a little bored late last night, but I recognized the boredom so I made a concious decision to not eat.  I am realizing that so often, for a variety of reasons, I just grab stuff to eat and usually not healthy stuff.

Right now I am just feeling a little overwhelmed and trying not to think of my overall goal.  It's harder than it seems.  I am not wired to see small successes, but I am striving to change that.

I haven't really felt all that hungry today, but I am trying to eat something every 3 hours or so.  Small bowl of Special K, protien shake, 1/2 a sandwich, a serving of wheat thins so far.  I did have some water and rode an excercise bike for 10 minutes. (I probably could have went a little longer, but my butt and the bicycle seat just were not on friendly terms. I realize that over the last 3 decades I have been inundated with diet tips and magical weight loss secrets.  All  this information has been whirling in my brain so I am taking the next few days to manuever all the info around and see what works best for me.  So far I am going with the eat something small every 3-4 hours and break excercise into 3 10 minute sessions.  I need a little help incorporating  more water into my day.  My goal is to try and be down to 1 diet soda a day in 30 days.  Yikes!

So the plan for the rest of the evening- try and get in one more excercise session and to drink somemore water.  As I type this, it really sounds so simple, but my legs feel like lead and I just feel like being a lump on the couch. Geez, why can't I just be an athlete with the metabolism of a hummingbird?

PM update-  I made some chicken, garlic and herb noodles, and mixed veggies for dinner. I have not yet made the decision to eat  only foods  prepped in a healthy manner.  I have however  put more effort into trying to make foods a bit healthier than I have in the past. I started paying attention to how much butter I use while cooking, using 2% milk, stuff like that.  Again, I am going with small steps that I can continue for the rest of my life.  The other thing I did tonight was to pay attention to how much I was heaping on my plate.  Since I associate cooking and feeding people as being part of loving and nuturing, I tend to cook wayyy to much and use way too much butter and cream.  Thusly, we eat more.  Now my boyfriend is not by anymeans fat, but he has over the past year put on a belly.  I never say anything to him about it, because 1- I am the last person to talk, and 2- I know that it really bothers him. 3- he looks better with a little meat on him, but I realize belly fat is dangerous stuff.  Anyway, tonight instead of making 2 boxes of noodles I only made 1.  Then I loaded my plate with chicken and veggies first and then used what was left on my plate for noodles.  When we were finished my bf asked me if there was any noodles left and I said nope-all gone, and that was that. Normally, I would have felt bad, but I realize that by overfeeding him, I am not doing him any favors.  So ultimately, he is eating a little healthier and he doesn't even know it!

 I still am feeling really tired. I laid down to take a quick nap at about 6:45, when I woke up 2 hours had past. As a result,I did not get anymore excercise in, but I am having a bit more water and having a snack of frozen fruit.  I am finding that if I eat the frozen food that comes in a bag, it seems like I am eating candy-yipee!  Emotionally, I am tempted to feel like a looser for not getting more excercise in, but I am not allowing myself to fall down that particular rabbit hole.  Maybe, I need to just spend the first week or 10 days getting used to eating less before I try and incorporate anymore excercise.  Again, emotionally I am tempted to want to belittle myself, and feel like I am failing.  But with 3 days in, I know I am on to something and I will not let my negative self talk get the best of me!  I am treating myself as the friend I know I am -  Loyal,loving and persistant!